THE BIRTH OF THE LION -PART II- SUFFERING
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Does suffering happen exclusively in the mind?
Yes. Suffering happens exclusively in the thinking mind. In No-mind, suffering does not exist. Whatever keeps suffering and the clinging to suffering in motion is a mechanism in the mind that pushes the awareness of suffering into the subconscious. This mechanism can be called indolence, literally meaning: intolerance towards the experience of pain (dolor = pain). No one would be ready, in fact, to suffer in total consciousness. Consequently, as I stated before, suffering itself is not the problem. The problem is the lack of conscious awareness about the suffering, the denial of suffering, and the ensuing numbness.
This indicates that suffering is not acute depression or mourning but something seated much deeper than that - the fact that I do not know who I am.
Yes. As long as there is an I who blindly identifies with being an individual separate from oneness, there is suffering.
So, what is normally described as happiness is just another form of suffering?
Yes, what is normally described as happiness is just another form of suffering. Suffering can be considered either a friend or an enemy. In the spiritual process of awakening, suffering becomes more and more accepted as an ally, as a transmitter of recognition and not as something that has to be destroyed.
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I often feel “high as a kite” and then once again “down in the dumps.”
You give too much significance to your feelings. Sometimes the sun shines, and sometimes there is rain. So what? Ultimately it is not important whether the sun shines or it rains. In truth the sun shines all the time anyway. When you give up your deep attachment and preference for sunshine, then it is all just “weather.” The bliss that I talk about has nothing to do with either “bad weather” or “sunshine.” It is That from which all weather originates, that is to say, the sky.
Let the weather be the weather. It doesn’t matter whether there is grief or rage, laughing or no laughing, feeling or no feeling. Those are not essential. You need not have any idea about what kind of feeling should be there and what kind shouldn’t. What use is that? In any event, you know that the weather forecast only proves correct in a limited way, and this goes for the outside as well as the inside.
But I have a problem accepting all of the changing feelings in the same way that I can accept the weather.
When you say you have a problem giving up preferences and dislikes, recognize what they do to you. By this, you are saying, “I have a problem giving up suffering.” The real mystery is that people want to give up everything else possible except suffering. When you give up suffering, the only thing you really lose is suffering. You have to be ready to lose it. And preferences are just a disguise for suffering. Fixated preferences and dislikes are disguises for suffering. As you may have already observed, preferences always want something different from what is. If you want something different from what is, you believe yourself to be separate from what is.